LonELy LiFe

It s hard to beliv a persn cn live like dis, mising u ol d tym. At least it’s not the only thing I think about.Wen n school I think about class,but sometimes u drift n2 my mind,wen I see 2 pipol loving each other,or f I hear something funny.And der is work, most of d time I am 2 busy to think of you,but wen it s slow there u are.u are always there wen I have nothing 2 do. I think of how I would rather be doing nothing with you around rather than alone.And always as I go to bed.I snuggle up to the pillow pretending it is your chest as I rest my head upon it.It has been making me sad lately.More sad than I want to get.I hear all the stories of love, I watch as my friends run off and get married, I know you always think that I am too young, but that doesn’t stop anyone else.Sometimes wen I am alone,thinking of u,missing u, I think about how you r probably having a great time.How u r surrounded by the pipol u care about,doing the things u want to be doing,and not thinking of or missing me. And it hurts.When I have those thoughts I try 2 tell myself dat we r just in different places,u want to have fun,be free and young,and f we wer always together that couldn’t be.But recently like I said I have been sad.I don’t want to make excuses for you.I don’t want to have to make myself feel better,I don’t want this constant reminder that we are apart and that you don’t mind it.I think it is moot for me to write this you already know how I feel. It scares me sometimes.The thought of it always being like this, it chills me.In my heart I know someday you will come to want the same things from our relationship as I do,u will someday value me and I value u.But my head sometimes doubts it.My head suggests the idea dat u will never change.You will always want to be free;u will alwys see me as a prson in ur life dat u care about,but no more than dat.Or maybe u will someday see dat another person is worth making scrifices for,another person mkes ur lyf complete,but dat person won’t be me.

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Who am i?old enough not to be writing fan letters,but a fan letter is just another way of expressing love.at least it can be.
Only if I knew how you felt about me.
Only if I knew how much I meant to you.
Only if I knew how much longer I could bear this overwhelming
feelings I have for you.
Do you know I have been in love with you, you have become
the sweetest person I have ever known that I want to be with?
You put a smile on my face, you make me feel comfortable, and
you see my good sides and tolerate my littel quirks. You have
told me a couple of times I cannot be your girlfriend.
Even if you tell me that I cannot be with you thousands miles
away, I want you to know, you are and will be in my heart.

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